Looking Back

I was thinking about old songs my Mom use to play when I was a kid and how I have lived my life like and old blues song.

Looking back over the time I must have lost my mind. If I could I swear sometimes, I wish I could just hit rewind.

Some of the stuff I think I did was just way too soon. Trying to do what everybody else said was right, instead of what my heart told me was right.  My first mind, instinct, common sense, my inner me, you know listening to all them people sitting on the sidelines of my life chanting "Girl do the right thing". If I had listened to me, while I was the one trying to find my own happy, I would have jumped a fence instead of jumping a broom. But I moved too soon.

Chasing cotton candy stories and childhood fairy tales wishes, shoot being a kid was easy. One blink of an eye and just like my mama us to say it was over, I had gone and grown up. Now there were no more cotton candy and fairy tails dreams, there were checks and balances, schedules, and appointments. Ain't no more tooth fairies leaving money underneath my pillow.  These feet got to keep moving to keep the lights on. It ain't easy being grown, and now I got little mouths to feed of my own.

Looking back over the times I didn't lose my mind. I still wish I could hit rewind. Just so I could really listen and learn my life lessons this time.

But I can't so wish me luck, until the next line.....