The Things People Do

I have been having so many AH-HA moments lately. I have realized that there are some things that people do that never and I mean never stop surprising me.  I still don't know why the caged bird sang, but I guess that girl was feeling some kind of way not being able to fly. I have forgotten that I have wings.

I learn new things everyday, today I found out that there are actual elements to a friendship. When I learned what they were I realized that I have not been a very good friend.  I have lost sight of the things that at one time meant so much to me. Where did I go wrong? When did I turn into someone that I too don't sometimes know when I look into the mirror? Time is a funny thing.

Everyone knows that the flow of time and change are two things that will always move, always change.  I don't know if in time I have changed for the better. There are things about myself that I don't like, and I want to change but I have become comfortable with my shortcomings.  When did that happen? I don't want to wake up one morning and find that I am the victim of my own mini-drama.  Being brave is hard, but I want to be brave enough to make the changes that I need to free my wings, so I can fly again.

Well change is coming and something has got to give. What will have to give so that the give and take that is needed for a healthy me can take place. I will have to commit to blogging when things are fresh in my head so that I can actually get the good stuff down where it counts.

I am going to sleep on this now. I did not follow my own advice and now I have to scramble to put my heart into what  want to say. I will have to try again later when I am composed.

Change

Just like time change is gonna come. I have experienced change so often I have forgotten which direction that it comes from. Then I remember that, that in itself is the nature of change. People change their opinions daily, and that is just natural. If it wasn't for change where would we be?  I have told a bold face lie that I am not a slave to time, fashion, or change. Truth be told, I am afraid of and grateful for said change. I am also the enemy of change. I like my comfort zone and I resist that which forces change. all this talking in circles is just talking in circles. Another truth be told I am mad at hell at the fact that I can not face up to the change that I need to make, instead I am living in my comfort zone in a constant state of unkempt. I have to give my human condition a name because that is normal. I am a coward, afraid of making waves.

Has anyone else found themselves in these pretty but uncomfortable shoes? Speak on it, share your wisdom.

Sometimes You Just Have To Let It Out

I have an issue and I don't rightly know how to handle it with the correct tact.  Have you ever found that you have outgrown a friend? I have found that I have outgrown a few of my old friends. There is an old saying that people come into your life for a reason or a season, or something like that. What happens when you have reached that seasoned reason and the other person has not? What happens when you find that spending time with the other people or person feels forced?
It is not that I dislike the other person or individuals, it is just that people grow up and interest change. I have never wanted to be the fake friend, so I am having a hard time. It's like being in a conversation and not knowing what the heck the other people are talking about. I don't want to be the "mean girl" but I can not waste positive energy on something that does not have a positive outcome. I believe I have been that person that was the person that someone else outgrew. I understood, and I found a new circle of friend that I had more in common with.
To be totally truthful, I am flattered that people want to hold on to my acquaintance, but now I have had to resort to hiding out on the FB and Skype so I am not forced into having those "hey, so how are you? how is the family? how is the dog? what you doing? okay!okay!ok!oh yeah !oh yeah! kinda conversations. Truth when you are living totally different lives in totally different places and family ties do not bind you together, unless you are the best of friends you will grown apart from the friends you meet in life. You will also stop caring about what is happening in the old hood with the old crew that are still doing the same old things.
Anyone else other there been in these uncomfortable shoes? How do you say that we have come to the end of the road without starting a fire?
JustMee